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Regret is such a horrible feeling. True regret. Regret in something that isn't fixable and will never be fixable. Hearing cliche things like "no regrets" or "live life with no regrets" seem so immature. Like a baby saying they don't mind paying bills. I regret not being kinder, I regret not giving you a hug. These are not the type of regrets that I can fix. These are not fixable. I've never had a problem without a solution. I didn't know there were problems without solutions, oh but there is. It makes every other 'regret' i've had seem so stupid. Those aren't regrets. Regret is not a word. It's a feeling in the pit of my stomach where I feel like someone is stomping their boot continually and slowly. Regret is checking to see if i'm still breathing. Regret is the worst of all of them. Worst then the guilt, worst than the sadness, worst than the anger. Regret you wont be here for OUR kids. Confusion is regret's cousin. It knocks you off your ass